Please say a prayer for my hubby's hand surgery today. He has to check in at 10:00 this morning, and the surgery starts at noon. We're told the surgery should last about an hour and he should be able to go home shortly thereafter. As I've mentioned before, the surgeon won't know the full scope of damage until the surgery begins, so please continue to pray that there are no surprises and that the surgery can be done easily & the recovery, quickly.
Ethan will be having his potassium level checked today - at the same hospital, around the same time - so please also pray that the level has not hit the "danger zone". I pray it's either gone down, or at least stayed the same as it was on Monday.
My heart & mind have been back and forth this past week, somewhere between faith and fear. Not about any one thing in particular, but all of a sudden, about everything. There's a lesson in the midst of all of this for me, and truthfully, I'm hesitant to want to learn it. I actually have much more to say about this, but with the hustle and bustle that today brings, I feel it best suited that I save those thoughts for another day. I guess the bottom line is that I'm really struggling. And it's much more than Adam's injury, or Ethan's on-going monitoring. I'm being forced to examine and accept things that make me uncomfortable - at least, initially. That un-settle me. And I don't necessarily like it. But I know it's necessary. Because if the old Vacation Bible School song is true, then "He's still workin' on me, to make me what I ought to be".... and in all honesty, I know that He is. But I feel my need for "control" being asked of me. Among other things. And if you want to know a secret, I'm having a very difficult time with it all.
Pray for my boys today. I can't thank you enough.