Thursday, September 4, 2008

when push comes to shove...

...get out of the way.

I've never seen a real fight break out in person, however I've seen enough captured on the nightly news or TV/movies to know that I do not want to be in the middle of any punches being thrown. In fact, I can't really even watch two people fighting. Anytime a news story broadcasts a situation in which someone was beating someone else up or anything like that, I literally have to turn my head and struggle to find the channel change button on the remote. I just can't handle it. Needless to say, 'boxing', I will never understand. I don't like a "good fight". A physical fight. It makes my stomach turn.

I thought about this as I've been struggling with faith the last couple of days. As the lies of the evil one tries, relentlessly, to shake me off the Rock.

I've tried to understand and fully comprehend all along that this is a fight. Not simply a fight against cancer in our little boy, but a fight for my heart and my mind. A fight of faith. And the battle has been long. But with your help the last couple of days, I'm a bit more refreshed. Thank you so much for the verses. Thank you so much for the emails. Thank you so much for the prayers.

I'm a bit stubborn sometimes... Adam can attest to this (though he better not!). And I can easily forget that this fight is not mine. My portion of the battle was won when the Lord saved my soul. Everything from that day forward, is the Lord's. Every mistake (and oh there have been many in my lifetime) were His to correct. Every fork in the road, was His path (even when I went the wrong way, He led me back). Every burden I took, He took back. Every good gift or lovely surprise, was His giving. As His child, I am all His. The good, the bad, the broken, the beautiful... He has given, corrected, fixed, and blessed. So this fight, though long, is not mine. The pushing and shoving of lies and fears do not need my involvement. God knows my heart's plea. I simply need to get out of the way. And, climb back up on the Rock of promises I've already been given.

John 11:3-4 - Therefore his sisters sent unto Him saying, Lord, behold, he whom Thou lovest is sick. When Jesus heard that, He said, This sickness is not unto death, but for the glory of God, that the Son of God might be glorified thereby.

Psalms 126:5 - They that sow in tears shall reap in joy.

Exodus 14:14 - The LORD will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace.”

Deuteronomy 1:29-31 “Then I said to you, ‘Do not be terrified, or afraid of them. The LORD your God, who goes before you, He will fight for you, according to all He did for you in Egypt before your eyes, and in the wilderness where you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a man carries his son, in all the way that you went until you came to this place.’

2 Chronicles 20:15 - ...Thus says the LORD to you: ‘Do not be afraid nor dismayed because of this great multitude, for the battle is not yours, but God’s.'

Now that this is settled once again (and hopefully I don't soon forget).... I'm going to relax, continue to wait, and get a Diet Dr. Pepper.


Mom K said...

Thanks, I really needed that!

Megan said...

You said it perfect. God has already one the fight for us by sending his only son here on earth to die for our sins and so we can eternal life in Heaven. You are human and very normal. The reason you have these struggles is so God can pull you closer to him. You actually tought me that. Hold on to your faith and what you have seen. God has answered all the prayers we have asked for and I know he will continue. Ethan is God's child and he doesn't want to see Ethan go through this either but as I said before God has his own time which is the most perfect time. It never feels like it at the time but when looking back at my life, marriage and kids etc... I now know why God had me wait for both until I was 33 and 35, he knew I would be in the best spot of my life to be the best wife and best mom possible.
I will never stop praying for you all.
God Bless!

Megan said...

I should really check my spelling before sending. Please forgive me, the worse thing is you are at teacher so it probably stands out like a soar thumb.

Mandy said...

I needed to read this. Thanks for writing. I'm glad God gave you the words to put in print.