Ethan and I have had a relatively uninspiring day, but that's okay. Everyone needs some "down time" once in a while. A good old fashioned lazy day. A day where nothing gets accomplished that needed to be. A day where the "shoulda" "coulda" or "woulda's" will prevail. And it's all okay. In fact, sometimes, days like today are necessary. And even if you end the day still in your pajamas, who cares, right? Because you just needed to be busy doing nothing, and enjoying it.
Ethan has to go back to the doctor tomorrow for some routine blood work. Since Adam is off for the 4th of July, then we will make the trip to the hospital a bit of a family field trip. I imagine we'll stop at McDonald's to appease my McMuffin craving and since the outpatient area will be closed, we will go up to the inpatient floor and chill out in a room for a few hours as we wait to see whether or not Ethan needs a blood transfusion. Hopefully, he won't, because then that'd mean we'd be there for a few more hours... but I've decided that even if he does, and we're there for the potential 6 or 7 hours... at least we're all together... our sweet family of three (well, us being there together with a TV doesn't hurt, either!). Just kidding, but in all seriousness I find myself LOVING the times the 3 of us can be together since I know that soon, Ethan and I will be in Boston and only seeing Adam when he comes up on weekends.
By the way, thank you for praying for us to have wisdom about Ethan's spleen. His oncologists here in Hartford and in Boston feel that removing the spleen has more pros than cons. However, they aren't surgeons, so they can't really answer our concerns about how intense the surgery would be. So we have a consultation appointment with the surgeon on Monday to have a discussion about how dangerous the surgery would be on Ethan's little body. If he seems to think it'd be pretty routine and that he'd recover quite well, then we will probably move forward in that direction. However, if he suggests that the surgery would be very intricate and more complicated because Ethan is a baby, then I think we're going to make the decision not to do it.
Removing his spleen isn't an absolutely necessary piece to this whole puzzle, however the docs think that it could be a help in ridding Ethan's body of cancer (since his spleen has a lot of cancer living in it). Anyway, the final decision is up to me and Adam. And after our consultation with the surgeon on Monday, I believe we will have our answer. Please pray that both Adam and I have a the clarity to ask about all the concerns we have, and that the surgeon can speak with wisdom and confidence either way. Pray also that we have a peace about the best option for Ethan.
Habakkuk 3:17-18 Though the fig tree may not blossom, Nor fruit be on the vines; Though the labor of the olive may fail, And the fields yield no food; Though the flock may be cut off from the fold, And there be no herd in the stalls—Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation.