In the early hours of the morning...

I had such a sweet time with Ethan this morning at his 3:00 feeding. He had been asleep for 7 hours and was awake, ready to eat... and play. He was smiling like crazy as I rocked him here in our hospital room. I had slept about 4 hours at that point, and actually felt pretty rested. We stayed up for about an hour after he ate just talking and playing. He was so content and so cute. I was talking with the Lord during that time as well, and just felt at such peace that God was going to do a wonderful healing in Ethan's body. I was asking the Lord for a miracle healing. A healing that could not be explained or understood. A true miracle. And I didn't feel silly or foolish in asking for it. I actually felt very calm and almost assured. I asked God to heal his body even before we move towards a transplant. I sat in wonder as I thought about the uproar of praise that would be given to God at such a miracle. I sat in wonder as I pictured the doctors at a loss for words. I sat in wonder as I envisioned taking Ethan 'around town' in his stroller this summer, instead of taking him to another hospital in Boston for a bone marrow transplant.

I sat... and believed.

It is scary to sit here now and publicly write that I know God is going to preform a miracle in Ethan's body, because "what if I'm wrong". But I think that's exactly the type of faith that God wants us to have. Absolute, undoubting faith. A verse that was shared with me reinforces that mindset. Allow me to share some of the passage with you.

John 8:5-10 & 13

"And when Jesus was entered into Capernaum, there came unto Him a certurion, beseeching him, and saying, Lord my servant lieth at home sick...... And Jesus saith unto him, I will come and heal him. The centurion answered and said, Lord, I am not worthy that thou shouldest come under my roof: but speak the word only, and my servant shall be healed. For I [myself] am a man of authority, having soldiers under me: and I say to this man, Go, and he goeth; and to another, Come, and he cometh; and to my servant, Do this, and he doeth it. When Jesus heard it, He marvelled, and said to them that followed [with them], Verily I say unto you, I have not found so great a faith..... And Jesus said unto the centurion, Go thy way; and as thou hast believed, so be it done unto thee. And his servant was healed in the same hour."

Ethan's doctor, the head specialist on his case, just came in to report that yet again, Ethan's spleen is smaller than it was yesterday, and his white blood cell counts were still in good shape. I felt slightly silly, but I told the doctor that I am asking God and believing a miracle will take place in Ethan's body, and that his team needs to be monitoring his blood closely because they could very well start to see a change in his overall blood counts, for the better. I wanted them to daily be sure he even still HAD the cancer before they moved forward with various treatments. He said they monitor everything going on in his body daily, and that if things looked like they were taking a turn for the better, they would certainly not ignore it.

So AMEN!

Pray with me for a miracle in Ethan's body even before we move towards a transplant. Have the kind of faith when you pray as if you truly believe it's going to happen. Pray with such faith not only for us and for Ethan, but for your life and your trials as well. God can handle it all... He doesn't work with a "just one thing at a time" mindset.

James 5:15a -- And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up.

Rejoicing and believing, daily.