gentle leading

It's hard to believe that it was only one week ago today that we were preparing to be discharged from Boston Childrens Hospital. I'm amazed that it has only been a week! Adam has been home with me and Ethan since last Friday (he took this week off) and we've been able to do so much together and around the house.... making way for our growing little boy! And having to go back to Boston twice this week (Monday and yesterday) proved to be quite simple overall - even if it does require leaving the house at 6:45 in the morning and getting back between 4:00 and 5:00 in the evening. It has just been so refreshing to be home and allow Ethan various playful opportunities and experiences that he couldn't have in the hospital.

I do have to be honest, though. My mood has fluctuated quite a bit these past few days. There have been moments of irritability and other moments of frustration... and I've managed to go all week without a single, meaningful, quiet moment with the Lord... but I'm praying for a change in all of that. I won't bore you with the list of excuses that have been in my way, but I will ask that you pray for me as I settle into a personal routine that allows me the time I need to focus on further becoming the woman and mother God would have me to be. I don't want anything lost in all we've had to endure as I get back to a somewhat normal home life... I'm not sure if that makes sense, but in a way, being at the hospital off and on over the past many months has left me feeling like I know what the Lord would have me do while we are there... while being back at home leaves me feeling unsure of what to do in some ways. Though I desperately want to be at home and not at the hospital!

Oh goodness, I should stop this rambling before my thoughts loop back around again and I attempt to say the exact same thing, but in a worse way than I already have! Before I go, though, I have some additional pictures of Ethan and his week at home. Look at those chubby cheeks! Hopefully he can be weaned off the steroids soon! He's becoming more active each day and I'm so thankful for that. Each appointment we've had this week has gone very well. Please pray they continue to do so. Please also pray for me as next week I will be taking Ethan to Boston on Monday and Thursday by myself as Adam goes back to work. There's a lot that is involved in these appointments (mostly the time it takes) and I need the Lord's help to ensure everything runs smoothly.

Isaiah 40:11 - He will feed His flock like a shepherd; He will gather the lambs with His arm, and carry them in His bosom, and gently lead those who are with young.