another update

Hello all, this is Hollie again I am copying another message for Kasey because Ethan's blog site is still blocked from her.

Here is Kasey's message:

Hi everyone, I'm still unable to access Ethan's blog from the hospital room. I've been told it was fixed, but unfortunately it hasn't. Please continue to be in prayer for these kinks to be worked out, because I'm feeling a huge sense of loss not being able to "blog". In the meantime, I've asked Hollie to post this message again for me. Ethan is about to have his 2nd radiation treatment today, later this afternoon. He's done great so far, and has even done well with the anesthesia. The hardest part is the 4 hours before each treatment in which he cannot eat. The mornings are rough, but he's more subdued in the afternoons, so he's not as irritable. My mental state is still a grouchy one, though I am working on it! It seems that the "big" things I'm able to handle, but the small things seem to put me over the irritable edge. I am in need of a serious attitude adjustment and I'm praying that the Lord renews my spirit. The wonderful part of it is that Ethan is doing great. That's been my prayer all along and he's doing great. His spirits are in excellent shape (except when he's hungry and not allowed to eat). I sometimes thinks he's mad at me when he looks right at me crying wanting a bottle and wondering why I'm not giving it to him.... that part breaks my heart. After this afternoon's radiation, only two more days. Saturday and Sunday he will get chemo. Hopefully I can directly blog and "vent" more very soon, I need to get some stuff out of my system, I think! I miss all of you... sounds funny, but not being able to access Ethan's site really leaves me feeling so "disconnected". Your comments are sent to my email though, so I can read what you're saying regardless of whether or not I can access the blog. Until later....